Freeing Myself

Recently I have gone MIA with some people in my life. I was debating on whether or not to explain why I did it. But I have a feeling that they already know why.

Some friend groups for me were toxic. They made me feel like being myself was “abnormal.” I didn’t enjoy going out as much as everyone thought I did. I hated it. I hate the loud music, sweat, crowded areas, etc. I didn’t enjoy spending all my money either. These groups, all they did was drink. And if I wasn’t drinking enough, I would be labeled “weak” or a “p*!$#”. They’re choices in life weren’t the brightest either.

Another group, weren’t all what they seem. I won’t go into to much detail because they might know who they are and then get offended. By all means, I’m just telling MY perspective.

They did and said some things to people that I didn’t agree with. I was shocked when they all showed their true colors because they were people who did such incredible things. I’ve learned fastly that some people just do things for social media.

Which moves me onto the whole not having social media thing. I got upset any one would post things just for a like, whether you admit it or not. People are so tuned into this whole…”Well how many likes did I get?!?!” That its disturbing their peace and personality. I couldn’t take it so I left. The way I cope now is that, I only follow what I truly want to see. And Facebook? I only go on for a second now to post one of my blogs.

I saw myself crumpling into the ball of personality that I didn’t recognize. I got severely depressed and decided to make decisions for MYSELF finally. For the first time in my life I felt, free. I didn’t feel guilty or ashamed. I loved it so much that I didn’t care for social media to update me on others lives. No toxic relationships, no guilt trips, and no people being rude. Just me and my own vibes.

Going “MIA” was the most healthy decision of my life. I know who I am, and I know what I’ll be doing for the rest of my life. I learned how to deal with people who aren’t acting appropriately or who are disrespecting me or another person.

Just say no.





One thought on “Freeing Myself

  1. Thank you for sharing this. All though we didn’t talk all that much during our time at Sears. In recent developments, I’ve come to admire you and be inspired. I also have been trying to do better by myself and given that I won’t give up on social media, I also use it differently than “just for a like”. But the main point of this comment is just to truly thank you for sharing this. I’ll definitely be reading more.


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